Friday, April 20, 2007

With a smile on my face...

...I listen to a surprise baby shower for a coworker happening in the section next to my office.

It's lunch. All was quiet and I was enjoying catching up with some of my bloggy friends when suddenly I hear, 'SURPRISE!!!'

I sit here suddenly I realize something that is genuine and from my heart. A smile is on my face! I can't begin to tell you (although I know many of you can relate) to the number of times I cried on the way to a bridal or baby shower. Arrived in the driveway, freshened my makeup, took a few deep breaths, and pasted on a smile while I willed myself to walk to the door. I'd keep that smile on my face for the next few hours only to leave afterwards, get back in the car and cry my way home again.

Did this happen with every shower? NO WAY! (Very rarely in fact but still those times that it did I remember well.) There were many showers for friends and family that I smiled to, at and on my way home from. I was happy and excited for them but sometimes even though I was happy I still hosted a pre and/or post pity party for myself.

Guess what? I can finally allow myself to believe that someday I will walk into a room and rather than shouting, 'Surprise' I will be the one stepping back in shock and amazement (with a SMILE on my face!) that family and friends are celebrating with me! With me!!! Celebrating the new little life that God is bringing into my life. Celebrating Hannah!!!

So for now I wait....with a smile on my face!


  1. I love that post, Catherine! It's so neat to think that one day YOU will be the one with the surprise baby shower! How cool! I am so happy for you!

    Janet T.

  2. sitting here with a smile on my face after reading that post. How wonderful that you can smile now also. :-)

  3. It WILL happen Catherine and when it does, all this waiting will be a distant memory! You know we can say this is true, from personal experience! :>)

    Hang in there and be strong, for you WILL hold precious little Hannah in your arms and we're positive there will be MANY, MANY, MANY celebrations for the two of you!!!

    *** By the way, THANK YOU from the bottom of our hearts for all your support during our journey. Yes, we'd love to meet you next time we're in your "neck-of-the-woods!!!"

  4. I have been there and done that many times too. I am so glad that you have found your smile.

  5. How wonderful for you Catherine. You must just feel a sense of calm come over you. I am so happy for you. I am hoping that I can be at a baby shower for you and I WILL have a smile on my face!!

    ps - your post is posted twice...

  6. And I'm sure you will have the best baby shower EVER!

  7. What a great post! That is so encouraging and I look forward to that day coming as well.

  8. Wow!! I wish I could be there to see that smile on your face!!!

  9. We will all be so thrilled for you when you're the one walking in and hearing "surprise!". Can't wait to read that post!

  10. Now you've put a smile on my face!
    I dream of those moments too...walking into a room of baby girl stuff, just for her, with my closest friends cheering me on.

  11. I realized Friday that I'd accidently posted the same post twice but didn't want to lose the original comments. I've copied them here and will delete the duplicate post.


    Friday, April 20, 2007 1:19:00 PM, Kathy and Joel said...
    What a lovely post, Catherine. You brought a smile to my face as well. I can totally relate to the feelings you described about the times in which you felt saddened by what was happening around you. It's a lonely feeling and I'm glad that you didn't feel it today.

    Friday, April 20, 2007 1:39:00 PM, Doris & Dan said...
    You are so amazing! I love your positivity. One day your shower will happen and I hope I can be there so that I can shout SURPRISE the loudest!!!

    Showers (and b-day parties for kids for me) can be hard. To be the only one w/o kids when I am SO ready to have my own. A tough time. One that we will all overcome and we can look forward to the day when we are able to attend with our own little one in tow.

    Keep smilin!

    Friday, April 20, 2007 2:01:00 PM, Anonymous said...
    It will happen; hang in there.


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