Wow...this is new for me! I've read a few blogs that others have wrote but never really considered writing one...until tonight.
Many friends have encouraged my to journal my adoption journey so this sounds like a great way to do it and at the same time share this exciting journey with family and friends. I have been praying and praying about this adoption and am seeking God's Will. Do you think if I talk to Him 20+ times a day about it, He'll get tired of me? :o) I sure hope not because God and I are talking about this a lot! I want HIS WILL...not mine!
I'm not sure how often I'll write or exactly what I'll write about, but it does sound like a fun way to share what's happening in my little corner of the world.
I'm guessing most who read this will know my adoption journey to date but for those who are new here it is in a quick summary:
January 11, 2005 - While in Burnaby, BC on vacation with a friend I felt led to look seriously into adopting a precious baby girl from China. I'd wondered about this in the past and prayed about it off and on but now really felt led to pursue this avenue.
January 21, 2005 - Was told by all 3 Ontario agencies that their singles waiting lists were currently full and they anticipated a 3-8 year wait before more openings might be available. 1 agency was currently reviewing their list but still wasn't sure what the time frame would be.
January 29, 2005 - Spoke with Deborah Maw at Open Arms (OA) who told me she had room for me on her list! God took 8 years and turned it into 8 days!
February 27, 2005 - Attended an information session with OA - met 4 other singles there also waiting to adopt. Was told by Deborah it would probably be fall when I could begin my homestudy.
April 30, 2005 - Helped with OA Silent Auction to raise funds for an orphanage in China.
May 30, 2005 - Spoke with Deborah who said I could begin my homestudy! Woohoo!!! Yippee!!! Yikes!!!
June 13, 2005 - First visit with Social Worker - Sal. Went very well and I learned lots!
June 15, 2005 - For lack of a better term...hit the wall today! What am I doing? Is this what God really wants for my life? I only want what He wants....please show me Lord.
June 16 onwards - still praying, seeking God's will. Asking Him to guide and direct.
June 28, 2005 - met with my Pastor...such a wise man! I was afraid he might say that it was wrong Biblically for me to adopt but he did not say that. He is standing with me in prayer about the adoption. Along with many of you, we are seeking God's Will regarding this possible adoption. I want it but is it what God wants?
July 6, 2005 - called Sal and explained where I was at and that I didn't think I could go on at this time. I feel God telling me to 'wait.' He was very understanding and felt it was a 'mature' decision to wait until I was totally ready to move on...if that's the way God leads.
July 8, 2005 - spoke with Deborah and had to share the same thing with her. She too was very supportive of my decision. She asked how long I thought I would need and I told her I would let her know in the next 30-60 days where I was at. I told her I would give up my current spot if she needed me to but she said that wasn't necessary right now...just to keep her posted! What an answer to prayer! With singles spots so hard to come by it was very scary telling her I'd give mine up if she needed me to. So glad she didn't!
July 10 & 17, 2005 - spoke with 2 different Christian couples who are close friends. Both very supportive of my adoption and feel I could handle being a single Mom. Yes it would have many challenges and added challenges due to my being single but they both felt I could handle it. Phew! I feel I can but then again...I've never been a Mom! BUT....I also can't imagine not being a Mom! Not an hour goes by that I don't think of her so I believe that in itself is saying something!
July 26, 2005 - Today....Still praying for God's guidance and leadership. My heart is at peace that I should continue. I've asked God to write His answer in the sky but so far...no skywriting....or email for that matter! :o)
Regardless of what happens I want God's Will...His Perfect Will for my life. Spending time in prayer and studying the Bible, asking and seeking His will.
Please pray for this with me, will you?
Well, for my first entry, this has ended up being a long one. Not that that's any surprise to any one of you as you know my fingers fly as easily as my mouth talks! Oh no!
I look forward to sharing my chatterings with you again!